Finding Home

I searched for a long time, wishing and hoping and grasping to find that place where I belonged. Somewhere far away from the familiar. Somewhere beyond what had supposedly held my true heart captive for the duration of my life. And I did wander. I traveled to Europe once only to feel the heaviest most new and frightening version of homesickness plague my heart and soul. It was while I sat alone yet with friends that God's spirit embraced mine, implanting within the deepest part of my heart a love for my home and my church community that could have made me move mountains itself just to be back home.

Home became a different thing entirely for me. It was no longer a place that held me back but a place full of identity where I could thrive if only I would give it a chance. But did I? Yes...and no. I may have been ready to kiss the ground when I returned home. But still in my heart I kept chasing dreams that weren't entirely God's dreams for me. I let depression and emotions cloud my judgment, taking my heart into commitments that nearly tore my world apart at its seams. What I couldn't see was that the relationship and things I was chasing would end up taking me away from the things I truly valued the most no matter how much I denied it.

It's a long, lonely story that I may talk about in the future. But for now, I just want to say thanks and give all the gratitude to an on-time God who never forgot me and kept wooing me back to him from the sin that tried to creep into my life and make its home there, a savior who showed me I could experience an abundant life through his way, and a loving father who to put it plainly never gave up on me. I owe everything to Him!

Through this blog I hope to encourage you also no matter what walk of life you are on. For me, I have found home for now. And I'm ready to embrace this amazing, gorgeous, roller coaster of a gift I've been given by God. Fill me Holy Spirit! I need all the guidance you have for me as I move into your perfect will for my life.

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